Turning Over

2011-08-08T22:43:00.002+08:00

as long as you are happy, I will be happy for you.

sincere from the bottom of my heart.

I know you are facing a lot of problem from here and then,

but you won't know what is upcoming next,

the solution is not that hard as what you think it is,

is depends on how you look at that 'challenge'

it can be very easy yet hard.

don't start the morning in the hard way by thinking today is a shitty day,

just think positively, just let your mind goes clear.

if you keep thinking that the problem is hard to solve, then it will be hard.

I do not know how to put it in words,

but i know every challenge got the solution to solve,

if things really goes off hand, then just let it be,

take it as an experience.

maybe you think that it is easy for me to say, but don't let the challenge make you fall,

no matter that incident is by manmade or accident.

2011-07-26T22:11:00.002+08:00

A lot of people ask me, " why do you have to work so hard for a Company that barely could appreciate you"

Well I answer them in this way " I work so hard for the company not because of the Company, but for the person who i RESPECT too much" because " she is the one that taught me every single thing in that shitty company, she is the one who allow me to fall, to grow from nothing to something, to see how does a world of mask is, to challenge my guts and my thinking n etc"

It is not you to judge me, whether I was paid fairly, whether i was treated fair.

Is the return in no see. this is the chance we wont get often. I grab herder than anyone, i work harder than who ever newbbies are, just because i know i am a FRESH-GRAD who graduate from a different field, a different environment, i need to pay twice harder than anyone, i need to learn faster than anyone, because I know I am not smart enough, I want to prove to myself that I can do it, I can run like everyone, Just give me the courage n strength to continue, don't stop me, just be with me and you will know that all my hard work will be paid in other way.

As i see myself now, I am Doing better , but I believe that I CAN ACHIEVE HIGHER.

so bare with me~~~

if you are here, i believe you will support me in no matter wat way, cause u know wat i want to prove to people, you know what is happening.

Just Wait n See.

If you Ever KNOW~~

2011-07-26T22:00:00.002+08:00

If you ever know that we never be apart even with all the obstacles~

If you ever know that I never give up on you, not a single second~

If you ever notice that whenever i pick up a call i wish it was you~

If you ever notice that I need you all the time, ups and downs~

I shouldn't have act stupidly to be angry to you, Just because you do not allow me to attend the one of the important moment in your life. YES you did not allow ME to.

Your birthday is around the corner, I wish I could make up something that will bring us back together like passed time. I really wish it could happen, Just a little courage from me, one little step for me to knock off the ice wall between us. I really do hope that miracle will happen, let me be prepare. let there be surprise for us.

I never expect you to forgive me so easily, but i still hope~~ that day will come

when you & I

2011-05-17T04:42:00.002+08:00

when i am angry, means i care,

when i cry, i depend on you too much,

when i am being rude because i being real to you,

when i hug you cause i need the strength from you

when i smile, wanna make your day better

when i laugh because your joke is lame

when i scold you, because i care

when i am quiet because i'm thinking of the future

when i listen to you ur word inspire me

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

when you stop me from doing something because you care

when you ask thousand of questions, you just need 1 answer

when you yell at me is because you know i will listen

when you being frustrated is because you worry bout me

when you kiss me your heart belongs to me

when you hold my hand, means you wont let go

when you stand beside me, you are planning the future

when you are down you never tell me afraid i will be worry

when you sing because you express your love

2011-03-15T15:34:00.001+08:00

how does we stay contact when we don't call, see, or even text each other?

how do I know what are u thinking and u know what am i pondering?

sigh..

爱

2011-03-15T15:18:00.002+08:00

在爱的世界里，
没有对与错，
只有爱与不爱。
但为什么相爱的人会分开，
不爱的人会在一起？

现在的人都不懂得爱，
就连我，也是害怕再爱，
因为我不懂，怎么样才算爱。

真心的为一个人付出是不是爱？
会有心痛的感觉是不是爱？
想要珍惜的心情又是不是爱？

人家说其实爱很简单，
只要你相信有爱，
那你到哪里都会找到最纯真的爱。

You & Me

2011-03-15T14:59:00.003+08:00

My heart stop beating when I see your smile,
the smile that only you will show infront of ME.

My eyes can't move away from Your sight,
because the truth You show ME inside of YOU.

My soul follow Your heartbeats tempo,
and My footsteps follow Your footprints all over the places.

Nevertheless, My love spread all over You
if You never stop loving ME.

You will be My strength, My hope and My everything.
Together we hold our hand and face tomorrow.
You will be the only one.

...

2011-03-02T13:05:00.002+08:00

I'm soooooo LAZY to do nothing.

freaking bored sitting at home,

There are tons of house work to do, but i'm just too lazy to finish it up

2011-02-24T01:29:00.003+08:00

每当生命晋级到另一个阶段时，
一段新的旅程就会开始。
这就代表新的挑战新的事物新的人物，
意味了前面充满了不知的变数等待着我们。

当有东西阻扰，
不要畏缩，不要恐惧，
要更勇敢地向前走。

如果我们躲开了，
最后还是会回到原点，
那这段新的旅程就会像泡沫般的再次消失。

所以要突破，不要一成不变
因为我们都不知道下一段旅程是何时，
也不知有没有下一段，
因而要把握住现在。

我们就一起努力吧。

眼泪

2011-01-20T16:31:00.002+08:00

有人说，女人的眼泪是对付男人的最佳武器，
但相对于男人的眼泪却是最珍贵的。

可是对我而言，女人只是更加善于表达自己的情感，
而男人却不敢将自己的脆弱现于他人面前。

如果女人的眼泪可以让男人懂得珍惜，
那女人的眼泪就不会是对付男人最佳的武器。
而且男人需知道女人只会在他们所爱的男人面前落泪。

如果男人的眼泪在他心爱女人前落下，
这代表这女生对他很重要，
所以女人要珍惜这个男人。

2011-01-11T02:49:00.002+08:00

突然之间，看左看看右
发现原来人与人之间的感情脆弱的可以。
一件事情发生了，人总学不会往两个方向看，
我们总会先往坏那一方看，
好的永远等到完美解决才会被想起。
悲哀啊！

I realize

2010-11-26T07:48:00.003+08:00

i think i notice something different in novel and my drama series..

1) drama is always having picture and voice but novel is up to imagination

2) drama is much more nearer to reality but novel is mostly perfect

3) i love it both

I feel relief

2010-11-23T22:35:00.002+08:00

I felt relief after seeing n feeling it,
is all matter about time now,
I believe time can solve a lot of problems,
the day i went away,
after my tears, your hugs, your emotionless,
I already know
there is no way back,
all the promises that you made,
is all gonna gone with the wind and crueless time
all the promises that i made,
is gonna burried in my heart,
so don't worry be happy..............
i gonna live my life better than ever.

2010-09-25T07:09:00.003+08:00

Tired.. feeling sleepy..

but a lot of thing suddenly come into my mind,

but I do not how to express it or to put it in words,

i'm not good in forming sentences,

so sometimes i do not know how to tell people around me what am I thinking.

I think my brain is not complex, but my character (personality) is

as a lot of people said, human mind is the most complex thing in the world,

but sometimes, i think my character (personality) is much more sophisticated than others

god, sometimes i just want time to go back when i was young,

so i can enjoy the time whereby I haven't turn into a monster like now.

don't get me wrong, i'm not complaining my life now,

it is perfectly great cause,

I have the chance that maybe other people do not have,

like have a great family, superduper cool friends that support me all the time,

annonymous enemy that poking my back or killing me silently,

a super lovely bf that 'killing' me all the time,

great bosses that give good advise all the time

sufficient and luxury needs and wants

but just i do not know what i want more,

am i too greedy or so lonely or etwas.........

i think I'm just too tired to think,

CH.. got any answer for me?

2010-09-23T22:26:00.002+08:00

everytime when i'm facing dilemma,
you are the one always be there for me.

no matter how silly my words are,
u will still support me.

when my skies turn blue,
u are the one capable of making it colourful.

but now,
i'm 10,000km far away,
technology is the one that makes us both stay contact,
but it is also tech that tears us apart,
the days and night is completely opposite,
I do not know what is going on over there,
but I always hope that you will be happy,

there might be reason y ur smile faded,
ur laughter become silent,
and even the way u look at ppl doesn't seem the same anymore,
i know by heart ur heart stills stay the same.

For some reason, after some incident happen,
I really feel tired for something,
and i always pondering for ur advice,
but i was too afraid to disturb u,
for now my laughter is like urs, as well as my smile,

by time when i see u again, i hope u do make my smile appear again.
i'm not busy to see or to read,
but i'm just afraid that my tears can't stop when i see or read it again.
there are 83 more days,
i'm counting down,
the person i wish to meet the first is u,
i hope that u are the one that will appear in my sight that time....
i know it is friday and u will be busy on court,
but i really do hope it is u to pick me up,
like what i said b4 i leave,
I do not wish u to send me off, but when i'm back i wish that you are the one that come,

trip to croatia and bosnia

2010-08-03T21:55:00.002+08:00

Since I got no place to go for my holiday that lasted for 10 days long and I'm not allowed to go to Itally alone, that I do not know why.

So I decided to go Croatia with my boss and his family (Zaher (my boss), Silvana ( lady boss), Tarek, Sara and Marwan (their kids)).

On friday( 23 of july) I have to work till 12.15 to clean up the kitchen because of the trip.. after that rush back home to take a quick shower and get my butt out of the house.

waiting waiting and waiting for them to come n pick me up outside the house for 30 minutes, god it is soooo freaking cold out there..

so there begin my journey to Croatia with them..

the first day was a disaster, I reached there to their villa at 3.45 in the afternoon, that means 15hours of ride. Why is it 15 hours while my boss told it is only 12 hrs ride, it is because the autobahn in germany have a traffic light. See that is why the journey got delay.. damm!!

Since it is the wedding day for Silvana niece, so we went dinner at the 'Dom Kulture' for Dinner, and there they started to introduced people there to me, and I can't remember a name of them saying and sit there like a dump idiot.. using that time, I listen to the music that they play it is fun and delightful, people around started to dance and my boss ask me to dance,

but the sad case is, i'm not coordinated when come to dance. muahhahahah

But then, there is a girl, i think is the broom's cousin or sister ask me to dance with her, gosh,

sorry for stepping your leg so many times. and the dinner ends at 8.30pm and there we go, going back to the villa and sleep.. yuhuuu~~~~~

the second day (25 july 2010)

wake up at 11 something, it was a nice and terrific sleep..

u know what, we are going back to the place of the wedding dinner yesterday for brunch.

yeah... brunch..

u know what we are eating the same food again as yesterday... and it is cold...

stopping at there and chilling playing with the kids enjoying the winds and standing under the rain for 5 minutes..

next stops Silvana's mother's house

checking out there, excellent garden with plenty of vegetables and fruits..

yippie... i pluck an apple straight from the tree.. yum yum and some cucumber and tomato..

after that her mom made us some pretty awesome pancake with homemade fruit jam.

after high tea with them, i got offered for an super duper cool drive from a cool BMW Bike, running in the road for 160km/h stunningly cool.... wish to have one more ride, only the ride is driver could be a little younger and charming.. (muahhahah)

ohh and i try out the little bicycle that have accelerator running a 40km/h

after that we went for ice-cream and headed back to the villa, Silvana sister invited us for lunch n dinner, eating the same thing again.. gosh...

stop asking me to eat...

i'm full....

called it off a day please..

nope at 9 we continue with a normal and brand new food made by Silvana..

thank god but still eating..

and the day called off with my shower and alone time in the room watching taiwanese drama.

sweet dream to me..

work journal.... week 1

2010-07-08T02:04:00.003+08:00

hurmm...

starting my intern in drei linden ( benstanton- wettswil)

it doesn't sound or look tough to me,

sincerely, but just bored,

the first week is always the challenging week for me,

everything you have to start from the scratch,

and to adapt myself in the kitchen as well...

well, my boss/chef if a man from Arab, is married with a swiss lady and have three cute little kids. mr.yamout and mrs yamout (silvana)

name, tarek, sara and maruan(cute baby)

well i have 2 collegue, one in the service name Evana and kitchen Kumaran

they are nice person, just that keep talking german to me make my life difficult...

but just like what my boss said to me,

'you aim here isn'tjust to complete your intern, but to learn how to speak german more fluently,
you know everything in the kitchen since you learned from the school, so it is not difficult for u, but speaking in german need times to pick up, so i'm arranging you to do services for saturday and sunday morning, to allow you to learn quickly and another skill to obtain'

that sounds great to me... but god know that i have totally forget about my german..

my german only applicable for gruezi...danke and ciao...

life is miserable for me in this case...

working split shift is something to kill my time here cause in this little town,

there is nothing to see or to do...

watching over and over again of drama is my activity for free time

and i have already started to pick up all the things i need to know in the kitchen

so where will my life be in the second..

tomorrow will be the very good try out for the second week begin..

what if......

2010-07-08T01:51:00.003+08:00

what if, one day, there is a man walk pass you and stop

stund there for a second.... n tell you something,

emm.. miss.....

can i tell you something sincerely, from the bottom of my heart,

you really should not come out,

you know, you realy is ugly, never anyone told u about it?

then think, what is your respond?

give him a slap, or lock urself in the room and cry?

or you should tell the person,

hey, whether i'm pretty or ugly is none of your business,

why do you care?

I'm happy with what i have and also satisfied,

I doesn't need anything appraisal or advise from you to be wh the person you think

I'm who I am...

if even I can't accept myself, who else will love me..

and I doesn't need people to love me because of my appreance,

but they love is because of who I'm.

do you understand?

okay,,, but really who have the gut to tell the people in the face...

i mean straight in the face,

or the thing we afford to do is run away from the person

no girls... stand up to the people that say you are not pretty,

not good or you have a something bad, or not good enough,

stand up to them and tell them,

not everyone in this world is perfect,

neither do you is perfect...

either we love ourself or hate ourself...

if the person could not see the rest of the good thing in me,

he/she doesn't deserve me..

boya!!! and you know what you sucks toooooooo.......

2010-07-07T04:22:00.002+08:00

If I cry, who will be my side?
borrow me the shoulder to cry on?

If I would laugh, who will be there to share?
laugh with me like they mean it?

If I'm feeling down and depress, who is the one to comfort me?
to cheer me up?

If I'm stress, who will take care of it?
to help me de-stress?

If i'm bored, who is there to entertain me?
to have some fun with me?

If I need some one to talk to, who's ear can I lend?
to tell them whatever stories it is?

deep down in my heart, I really feel lonely,
who is the one to fill up the space?

I guess all of it, I can only do it alone by myself..
but I believe that god will always be there listening to me,
to guide me..
not anyone else but only HIM..
when I needed some one to love me more than I deserve,
he is the one to Love me,
there I can find peace

"Fat Soldier" Restaurant Concept

2010-05-23T01:07:00.000+08:00

Scenes from the Restaurant Concept "Fat Soldier"

2010-05-23T01:00:00.000+08:00

"Fat Soldier" Teaser

2010-05-23T00:53:00.000+08:00

"Fat Soldier" Trailer

2010-05-23T00:52:00.000+08:00

The Fat Soldier Concept

2010-05-23T00:28:00.004+08:00

there we go again for the FAT SOLDIER CONCEPT
by thirteen of the BA student currently undergoing the Concept and Theme Dinner
the founder for this concept are:
The Service Team: Stephanie, Brit, Pamela, Alex, Alexey, Eryn, Adam, Hany, Shanti,
The Kitchen Team: Wen Yow, Ronnie, T.C., Sam (me)

The beginning Stage:
we have to write a proposal, create a theme and concept for the execution day,
the work load is extremely a lot, gathering all the ideas,
the combination of the existing and the wild thought of the us,
the our first draft, Chevrons,
and we failed in the first place,
but that never kept us down,
our morale was boost by the failure,

that will lead to the second stage:
creating the new but not different from the beginning of the path,
and the new born baby is ' the Fat Soldiers'
we still remain our very first idea of the theme, but change all the concept,
the military theme and extraordinary different way of serving.
giving people that they are in the camp of military, how they are sit and eat,
but the food served are extremely delicious,
that is our aim,

third stage:
handing up all the requisition form, ordering item, design the restaurant,
doing marketing, selling the seats.
the combination of all the hard work, little tiny bit of the idea
creates the best and unforgettable night in IMI

Final Stage
the execution night,
a night of success, with tears and blood,
with hard work and friendship

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5zPnogB2bqs
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b-4Y-GPcMTs&feature=related

enjoy the video as present to you!!!
The Fat Soldier know you will love it..

面具

2010-05-22T22:00:00.003+08:00

人前人后，对于每件事，
或每个人对于每件事，
是不是都会戴上不同的面具？
还是都戴着同一款面具来对待所有的人，
这一些，应该只有自己知道。
面具，是每一个人保护自己的工具，
但有些时候，人们都不知道要怎么把面具御下，
就算面对自己都还要戴上面具，
不敢诚实的面对自己。
为什么呢？
在大一的时候，我曾经问过一些朋友的意见，
‘面具是什么？人们为什么要戴着面具做人，这样不会很辛苦吗？’
而其中一个给了我很好的答案，
但是我却忘了，
有没有人可以再给我答案呢？
再没人给之前，我先写下我的想法，个人意见：
（*你们可以不认同，但却是我对于面具的想法。。哈哈）
—————————————————————————————————————————
面具是好是坏，没人可以断定，

但我相信面具对于每个人来说都很不陌生，

因为我们就是靠它而活的，

对于每件事，人们都会用不同的面具来面对，

一个内心软弱的人会戴上凶狠的面具或是白痴的面具来对待他身边的人

一个有钱有势的人却会戴上开心享受的面具去告诉全世界的人他很高兴

它的功能不只是这样而已，　它可以让人失去本性，

也让人看不清真相，但我们却对它不反感，

因为它让我们增加了勇气，去面对一些我们本性不敢面对的事。

但是面具的背后，是一个怎么样的人，是一个怎样的故事，

有谁可以了解，　有谁可以帮另一个人御下那沉重的面具，

又或者当局者愿不愿意被御下面具，

当面具被御下的那一刻，又有没有人知道那面具的背后，

就是藏着你喜欢的那个人，

你爱上的可能是那面具，一旦御下，你却又会嫌弃面具背后的那个人，

那面具有应不应该被御下？

那这一生，人们就只爱上面具，
　
这是何等可笑的笑话？

现在的人都只爱上面具而不是因为他是他，

那是一场悲剧。

＋＋＋＋＋＋＋＋＋＋＋＋＋＋＋＋＋＋＋＋＋＋＋＋＋＋＋＋＋

面具，对于我来说不陌生，
因为我的人生里，
应该只有是小宝宝的时候才是最真诚的，不用戴着面具做人
肚子饿了就哭，尿床也哭，开心就笑，吓到就哭。
那时的生活还真是无忧无虑。。。。。
但现在的我，却靠着面具来过活，
什么时候是开心，什么时候是难过都不知道，
就算开心难过都要用面具来掩饰，
它对我而言是一个最好的保护层，
却也是伤害我最深的东西。
有人说，他从没戴过面具做人，
当那人在讲这一段话的时候，内心的那一层自我保护来捍卫，
就是面具的一个类型，
它可以演变成不同的形态，不同的定义，不同的场合，
所以你不能否认，那就是面具，
我不否认它，也接受了它，
所以，

它是我的好朋友。。。。。　
也是我的敌人。。。。。
但。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
也谢谢它陪我活了１０多年
未来，我还是会戴上你去面对世界，

Jovina Chia May Chin....

2010-04-12T04:26:00.001+08:00

to my dearest best friend....

JOVINA CHIA MAY CHIN

yawn!!!!
i know you are sleeping at this moment!!
do you know i miss you everyday??
haiseh!!
sincerely from my heart!!!!
DO BELIEVE IT.

Wanna ask why I did not call back n chit chat with you??
wanna know the answer?
I will give you the answer...
cause you are always so busy with study and driving in Malaysia,
so I dunno when are you free...
can i make an appointment here with you??
just to make sure you got nothing to do and safe at home with your puppy,
and there where i can have a long chit chat with you..
I miss all the time where we talk and chat!!
talking people, talking about things which is fun,
back then,
those are the time i miss the most,
going back to malaysia,
i miss time hanging out with you and driving around with you!!
duno what to do at time, but just spending all my time teman you shopping.
such a nice person i'm ( muahhahah)

I haven't been to your new house, haven't meet you pup
haven't talk to you for long,
haven't sleep with you for long..
muahhaha

how i wish we could work in the same city..
(plz not in KL)
we can go clubbing, kao zai and also shopping..
how nice will that be??
and I also miss Yean Yeon joining us!!
haiseh

Yean Yeon mui mui!!
i miss you lame joke!!!!!
hahahahah
getting more pretty and sexy in time being..
dai ko lui d!!!!!
go clubbing without ah kor how could you??
miss our olden days man..
how can time be so cruel??
getting old d lah us,,,,
but time proven to us how friendship can last for this long
nothing can come between us no matter the distance and time difference.

let's hold on together and make our dream to become future leader
come true
cheers for that!!

I miss you guys dearly!!
come visit me more ya!!
muahhaha

huggies n kissies n love u 222222222222222222222222222

陈俊宏是坏猪熊！！！

2010-04-12T04:16:00.003+08:00

hey dummy pig-bear!!
wake up!!!
stop sleeping!!!!!!
wake up baby!!!!!!
how can you ignore my phone call??
shit!!!
yer!!!!
TAN CHOON HONG

you damm pigggggie!!!
I miss you!!
damm Miss you Man!!

你什么时候才来找我呢？？
不要那么屌吧！！
真的有很多时候很想念和你去海边，
吹吹风，看看海，
这里没有海，只有湖。
没有人陪我看湖。。。。
而且这里还是好冷！！！
所以去看湖会感冒。
哈哈！！！
还记得我们都会聊聊天，说说梦想。
你还告诉我，等你事业有成的时候，才好回去找你，
但是如果你事业有成的时候，
把我这个朋友给忘了那我不是损失惨重？？
哈哈,所以我还是决定，早一点去找你。ok??

最后一次

2010-04-01T03:21:00.006+08:00

* 在我最后一次闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
先走了去了好远的地方
不能再陪你看日出等不到天亮
所有回忆抹去却并不容易
生死由天决定不要太伤心

** 我永远爱你
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6_duTfJRp6E
…………………………………………………………………………………………

祝福献给全天下的有情人，
在我们生命的有效期限里，
要好好把握和你爱人的一切，
不要等到失去后，
都来不及和你爱的人说
“我爱你”

宝贝，我也要对你说我爱你，
虽然我不知道你看不看得见，
但是我还是要说。。
我不知道我们可以在一起多久，
但是在这一刻我知道我是爱你的，
就算下一刻，我们分开了
至少我还来得及对你说我爱你。

你还记得你最后一次为我做过最浪漫的事
是什么吗？
那就是你握着我的手，
深情地对我说，我爱你！
你知不知道那对我来说就是一种浪漫？

你知道为什么我每次都喜欢逗你，惹你生气吗？
因为这样我就可以再逗你笑，
也可以看到你对我的紧张，
虽然你不是很喜欢我的这种方式，
常常也弄到你很厌恶，
但是我只想你可以对我再细心和以我为先
好不好？

dream.. goal,.. where are you?

2010-03-12T06:59:00.004+08:00

how to hold on to your dream if I do not have one?
how to achieve the goal if I do not know which path am I going?
how to appreciate my life if I do not know what's gonna happen next?
'''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''

Suddenly I feel not motivated again,
due to...
my life was completely ruin or to say 'fucked up' by me,
I'm lost..
seriously.....
I tend to found out today, that I'm a coward, so useless and so far behind from others,
if i try to catch up with them,
it seems so far,
Am I really that useless or what?
where is my life again?
what is life all about?
study? enjoy? to have a career? to be with someone u love?
to be success?
I really have no idea at all..
One thing I can admit, I'm a big lazy ass...
not because I wanna be,
just I don't feel motivated.
where did I lose all my passions? my youth?
the more I look into the world,
the more I fear,
I'm afraid that I will lose myself in some where,
where can I find myself again?
the journey of my life just begin,
but I feels that it is dead long ago in my heart,
till I find my dreams and goals again,
I'm REVIVE!!!
I hope I can be ALIVE again... even is just a minute.
and find my smile again..

anyone there reading?

2010-03-08T06:38:00.003+08:00

wondering are there anyone reading this blog?
or is for me to crap around here for the sake of fun?
if there is someone reading,
is there any respond from anyone?
hurm...
i'm so lazy to blog, too lazy to blog.. but where else can i express my loneliness??
or hard time? all my best buddy is so far away..
i have been keeping myself too long in the cave,
are there any1 out there can help me out of here?
i'm hunger for wildlife,
i'm hunger for adventure.
help me out from everything...
i just wanna live in a paradise,
whereby i can have all my time n freedom..

妳不懂啦....Chapter 3

2009-12-04T01:45:00.010+08:00

认识这个天使般女孩，是在一个叫亭亭的女生的生日上，

不过因为那天的主角不是她，

所以我也是仅仅知道她的名字叫诗而已.....

~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~

第二次看到她，是在学校所举办的Fassnacht Party 上，

她穿著和她不太相称的厨师服，穿梭在人群里。

讲到这，说真的！！

你们可有看过小孩穿大人的西装吗？？ BINGO 就是那一种感觉！！

我只能说那还真的不太适合她.....

而在那个时候..... **b

[喂！妳不是说今天要扮忍者吗？？那你的忍者装咧？？]

[我的衣服在婷婷那啊！！]

[我没有衣服怎么变？？]

[那我用垃圾袋帮你讨起来好了！！]

[来啊！！有本事你就来啊！！]

她一脸觉得我拿她没则的样子让我火大！！

[好！！妳等我] 我转身离开

走远前，我还听见她对着我狂妄的哈哈大笑.....：D

我二话不说走进厨房里，拿出黑色的大垃圾袋就往外走...

看准目标！！ ============〉趁她不注意，加快脚步走过去

就往那个戴了个高高的厨师帽可是还没我高的那颗头就这样死命的罩下去！！

耶耶！！ Bingo！！ Bravo！！哈哈，一个字爽啊！！

是那个小小的身躯在黑黑的垃圾袋里挣扎！！我赢了！！

哇哈哈哈！！ See！！现在笑的人是谁？？

娃哈哈哈哈哈哈.....咳！！咳！！呃... 笑太多了....

当她从垃圾袋中逃脱之后，她追着我打！！

虽然她打我不怎么痛，可是我必须要说，

那过程时期是蛮有趣的.. 哈哈：D

~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~

后来在 Student Bar 的时候，我有再看见了她，

她穿着蓝色和咖啡色横条纹的上衣和牛仔裤，

哇..... 我不知道我应该说我目瞪口呆，还是她面目全非??

不对！！因该说她改头换面比较好一点才对！！

我这才发现原来她比我想象中可爱很多，她的孅细中带着坚强，

她的态度大喇喇的卻伴随着一些些的细心，

我不知道她现在是有哪一点吸引我？？

但是她的笑容在暗暗的 Student Bar 里就是那么耀眼！！

~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~

[嘿！你的忍者装咧？？] 我走过去在她耳边喊着...

[婷婷又没有给我，我要怎么换咧？？]

[不管啦！！妳自己说要换的，没换罚三杯喔]

[喝就喝啊！谁怕谁？！] 她乱嚣张地对我这么说！！

[好！！等等 Student Bar完你别跑！！]

[好！！我就在这里等你！！]

[OK！！那你电话号码给我，我等等打给你]

[嗯... 078XXXXXXXX]

[好！！等等别跑嘿！！]

说完我有再次钻进人群里，因为我的朋友在找我，

但是我的眼睛还是不小心地回头看了她一眼，

喂！！等一下！！她的笑容真的很可爱耶！！

~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~

[喂！！把妹喔！！] 说这话的人是邦哥，是我的好朋友

[没有啦！！认识的而已]

[我要回去陪我女朋友了，她好像睡醒了！！]

[嗯！！好吧！！明天见啦！！]

邦哥走了！！那我要干吗咧！？

东看看西看看之下，

唷！！她还在那...

我走过去要她陪我到外头呼吸一下新鲜空气，

于是我就拉着她走到外头去...

~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~

[呼！！里面好热！！]

[可是外面很冷... 而且我怕冷！！] 她两只手交叉在胸前对着我说

[不会啦！！一下子就习惯了！！而且瑞士的雪下到三月中，你要习惯啦！！]

[是吗？？你又懂！？] 她一脸怀疑的表情看着我说

[我都来一年了，我不懂难道妳懂？？]

[是吗？？是吗？？] XD

我没有继续理她，她也没有继续找我搭腔，一个人慢慢的晃啊晃的走着...

说真的我不是故意的，但是等到我发现的时候，我的手上已经抓着一个小雪球了！！

可是眼前四下无人，就只有她一个人在我的可见范围内，

既然雪球都拿在手上了，不丢白不丢，但是用丢的又不容易中，

于是我悄悄地走了过去，把雪塞进她的背后！！

[阿~~~~~！！] XS 不用一秒，我听到一个凄厉的惨叫声

[哈哈哈......!!] 啊？？你们说我幼稚？？

怎样！？有就是幼稚！！：P

[你..你很坏耶你！！] 她跳啊跳的企图把雪从衣服里给弄出来

[哈哈！！有冰吗？？]

[废话！当然有啊！！你完蛋了！！]

她马上蹲下去抓一团更大的雪球握在手上！！

[哈哈哈.....!!] 我转身就跑... 啊？？怎么样？？我就是幼稚！！！

[你别跑！！] 她追过来了

不跑的人是傻子！！

我那么聪明，当然知道接下来会发生什么事，老早就跑的远远的了，

很遗憾，那你追我跑的游戏她玩得不怎么高明，

所以她追累了就把雪球给丢了，然后气呼呼的走回窗边，

偷偷地瞧着 Student Bar 里面的情形.....呃.... 雪球再来一颗!!哈哈!!

[妳在看什么？？] 我偷偷地又抓了一颗小雪球在手上

[我在找婷婷]] 她充满警戒心的看着我

[她在那里啊！！又没有？？妳的左前方] 我试图的分散她的注意力

[有吗？？在哪？？] 哇哈哈！！她上当了！！

[在左前方啊！！妳看那个穿着短裙的人] 当我说完这句话，

那颗雪球也同时进了她的衣服.....

[啊~~~~~~！！] 又是一声荡气回肠的.... 惨叫声！！

[哈哈哈.......!!] 啊是不行哦！！我就是幼稚啦！！

我笑嘻嘻地抛开，这次她死命的追着我，

不过... 还是残念！！

她追不到我，雪球倒是飞了不少过来，

我边躲边笑，她却气得发抖，不过我不知道她抖的原因是因为生气还是冷，

总之.... 我赢了！！

[不公平啦！！不公平啦！！] 她哇哇大叫....

[好啦好啦！！那我让妳丢一颗雪球我们算扯平好不好？？]

[好！！] ：D 她抓了几下，拿起一颗大雪球向我丢来，

雪球在我前面约5公分处落地... =.="

[哈哈！！没中！！] ：P （os: 平常还好没做很多坏事）

[不公平啦！！再来一次啦！！]

[人生就是有很多个不公平！！哈哈！！]

她随地抓了几颗雪球丢我，不过... 就是打不中！！]

玩累了！！可以进去里面了！！

[走啦！！我们进去吧！！有点冷了]

[冷死了，你这个坏人！！]

[我是阿！！哈哈~~~] 我一一脸骄傲的说着......

我开门让诗进去，她朝我哼了一声就走掉了，

我在这个时候并没有太在意，因为这是一个很无聊的 Student Bar

而我只想在里面找点乐子而已......

to be continue~~~~~~~

不跑的人是傻子！！

你不懂啦... Chapter 2

2009-12-02T21:21:00.007+08:00

[妳穿这样去 Fassnacht 很没有创意，要不要我帮妳改造一下，

妳很适合当恶魔耶！]

我又伸了伸手摸她的头。

[恶魔是你] 她指了指我...

[我哪是？] 我轻轻地拍了拍她的头

[不然为什么大家都那么怕你] 她朝我笑了笑...天啊！！她真的很可爱

[妳听谁说的？我认识的人很少耶]

[可是认识你的人也怕你，不认识你的人更怕你啊！]

[有吗？我觉得我人很亲切啊！] 我硬是装出一副无辜的表情

[假死] 她又用细细的手指了指我...

[你又不是熊，我干嘛在你面前假死]

听到这句话后她笑了，而且笑的很开心...

我很喜欢逗她笑，她的笑轻轻地，却可以撥动我的情绪，

我的心情随着她的笑容而愉悦；她的笑浅浅的，却能够牵引我的目光，

我的眼睛里不开她上扬的嘴角。

她黑黑的眼珠溜溜的转了几圈，

然后对我比了个peace 手势，她很开心，

虽然我不知道为什么... 但我的心跳已经不是由我控制的了。

~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~

瑞士的巴士虽然开得很慢，但最终也缓缓地驶进了终点站，

那是位于卢森市中心最大的车站，也是我们的目的地。

一下车，迎面而来的是一阵冷风，还额外夹杂了几点不大不小的雨水，

她一脸轻松的走著，但其实我知道... 她是很怕冷的，

我的手不是很客气的搭著她的肩，将她搂向我的身边，我把脸靠向她，

我的鼻尖轻轻触著她的头，嗯.......是Garnier的洗发精的味道，

而且是黄色包装的那种。

夜晚的卢森市街道上，挤满了观看Fassnacht的人潮，

我和她一路走著步并没有再多话，她很开心的东张西望，

因为这是他第一次来到瑞士，也是他第一次在这里遇到这么大的节庆，

我们边走边看，热闹的街道到处都塞满了人，

游行的队伍一步一步走过我们的身旁，

好不容易在人群里找到一的小洞，我和她挤到了人群的最前面...

她怔怔的看著游行的队伍，专注中的她又是不一样的感觉，

我没想过那样古靈精怪的她会有这样的表情，

我将手换在她细细的手臂上，我可以感觉到她在发抖，

今天真的很冷！！

只是我在人类中比较不怕冷的异类，体温特高，

即时是在下雪的寒冬低温下，我的手依然保有夏天的热度，

^.^ 其实也没有那么夸张啦！！，

只是大家都叫我暖气机或者是保温杯。=.=''

~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~

[你的脸好冰喔！] 我将手拿高贴在她冰冰的脸颊上.....

[对啊！！有风我的脸就会变得好冰]

[那我的手借你用吧！！帮妳热敷]

[好啊！] 她轻轻地点了点头...

我的手好久都没有离开她稚嫩的脸颊，不过那看起来是一个很奇怪的画面....

说实话，我的手从她的身后绕到她的身前然后死死的贴在她的脸上，

就算我们是站在Fassnacht的游行队伍里，那感觉还是很奇怪。

过了好一阵子，我感觉到她的脸比较不冰了，我才将我的手放下...

[这样子有比较好吗？] 我低着头问她

[有啊！！] 她伸出手摸摸自己的脸颊

[有就好！！] 我对她微微的笑著

接下来，她专心的看着Fassnacht的群魔乱舞加上一些鬼哭神嚎的音乐，

我也没有再多话，但是我的脑海却被一种奇妙的感觉，

点出了一些不知名的涟漪....

我在想我眼前的这个女孩，我到底怎么认识她的！？

待续。。。 [@.@]

妳不懂啦.... Chapter 1

2009-11-30T08:08:00.007+08:00

[妳不懂啦] 我说...

[好啦！！我不懂，我的智商只有70啦！！] 她轻轻地哼了一声

[你知道就好！] 我的嘴角微微扬起

她坐在我身旁，籤细的身子裹著薄薄的外套，

单薄的她更突现了今晚的寒天，今天因该是这个星期中最冷的一天，

我伸出手摸了摸她的头，摸没几下，他转过头来眼睛溜溜的看着我，

对我吐了吐舌头，那模样是有些古靈精怪，但是带着有一种不一样的感觉，

那是一种特别的感觉，只是这个时候，

我还是不太会形容那是一种什么样的特别，

不过。。。可以肯定的是。。在公车里浅浅的夜燈下她其实挺可爱。

我的手轻轻的滑开她的短发，

她柔柔的发丝随着我的手离开的弧度轻轻滑落到她小小的脸颊上，

她伸手挽了挽她的发稍，

奇怪... 为什么我要那么注意她的一举一动？

~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~

什么？你们要问我她是谁？？她叫诗，和她认识是在朋友的生日上，

不过第一次看到他的时候，我并没有多想，

因为那天的主角不是她，我的注意力也就没有放在她身上，

但是你们是知道的，

故事总是在这种微不足道的角落开始的。

什么？你们又想知道他长什么样子？

美不美？喂喂！！要求很多也.....!!

她... 绝对不是从童话故事里跑出来的那种白雪公主，

也绝对不是从天上掉下来的天使，

她有她自己独有的魅力，

她是那种会蹦蹦跳跳跑过来亲切地向你问声早安，

再蹦蹦跳跳离开的女孩，

而你会在下一个瞬间怀疑刚刚是不是有人跟你说早安，

她就像山里的精灵，

充满了活力而又古玲精怪，喜欢捉弄别人，

却没有人会讨厌她，这就是她给我的感觉。

~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~。~

公车上的人很多，大家都要去参加一年一度的 Fassnacht，

这是瑞士的一个大庆典，其目的是要赶走冬天的恶魔，

讲白一点，就跟过年放鞭炮赶走年兽的道理差不多。

车上的人五颜六色，奇奇怪怪的人不少，说是吵闹也并不过份，

可是有一个很奇怪的气氛环绕着我和她，

虽然这样说有些奇怪，但那些吵闹的声音在她的身边就好象静音似的被消去，

虽然我认识她没几天，但我很肯定她并不会魔法，

我傻愣愣的看着她，意识被她周围的平静所包覆，

我的思绪陷进一片空白，

可是我却早已分不清那是雪的颜色还是她给我的一种错觉。

待续....

honesty

2009-11-30T06:53:00.002+08:00

Let me ask some questions (if there are really reading my bored and hyperduper many wrong words or phrases, verbs, vocab etc...)
but who really cares even if i used my grammar wrongly, unless my English Lecturers or English Teacher read my blogs.... I think they will get heart attack immediately.. LOL
ok, Back to the track, my questions,
Are the really honest people that exist?
no matter they are categories into few like,
-honest towards only old folks
-honest towards themselves
-honest towards their another half
-honest to all the people around them

personally I don't think so..
why why why~~~
very good question
because we all live in a realistic world,
we live under masks and lies
and what,
we loves lies and lies roXXx

If there is someone, even just one person tells you that he/she never lies,
fine,
that will be the biggest lie that they ever lie,
People normally don't face the fact whereby lies are the best medicine in the world,
or people do agree just that I did not realize about it ( that will be my bad, sorry )
tell me, who does not lie,
step out and tell me, Tell out loud.
if there is an 90 years old folks telling me that he/she is a virgin,
I still might believes that,
It is much easier to accept than he/she never lies in this whole long journey of 90 years.
Are there people agreeing with me, knodding happily n laughing wickedly?

hearts to hearts.. what is the big deals telling lies to people?
everyone does, is it because it against the ethics or moral or religion (no offense, sorry)
admit it, even a 3 years old kid can lie,
so what is it so shameful to admit that we are biggie liar,
in the matter of fact, we are competing that who is the better liar in this world,
nothing much that I want to share,
just wanna say,
is ok if u wanna lie to the whole new world or whoever,
but just be honest to ourselves treat us, ourself just in a better way,
or else you really can't find anything to satisfy!!

let's read, maybe i'm not good in expressing or using wrong words, but read to help

2009-11-25T02:19:00.002+08:00

dream never come true if you never pay hard enough it,

once upon a time we was all talking about our dream,

what will we be in the next ten years?

own myself a cafe?

become a top chef that everyone agree and admit that you are?

runs a hotel?

become a lecturer?

become mom or dad?

doing some other thing that have nothing to do with what we had studied?

there are so many unseen thing in front of us?

how much we should pay to see at least what we are in there?

is it true that what our parents tell us will come true?

we always chase our goals blindly or do what our parents asked us to do,

did you ever think for yourself?

what you really want and what you need?

maybe is just right at the corner,

maybe is just right in front of you,

just don't be so greedy,

accept what is in front of us,

if everyone in the world satisfied with what they have,

maybe the world would not be what SHE is today,

SHE might be more gorgeous, if we are not greedy to squeeze every single piece from HER

SHE can be more tame , there won't be so many lives sacrifices when SHE is angry

SHE can supply us with more nature resources, if there have not illegal excavating

When can we change to ourselves to save our own and our home?

If there are no proper way to change ourselves,

Don't talk anything about our future or dream,

There will be no dream to pursue

There will be only nightmare to follow so..

If you can turn yourself into a nature responsible person then,

you can speak out your dream loudly,

If you want to teach your children or the next generation,

Please teach them how to be responsible to the EARTH,

rather than teaching them to be something that won't happen if there is no more EARTH

and learn with them, how to give HER and your children A better tomorrow

STOP ABUSING HER,

*we are born to do, to build to create something that MATCHES or ALONG with HER,

not born, build, or create something that AGAINST or DESTROY HER

*Don't Think but ACT

Do You Know This??

2009-08-14T16:57:00.000+08:00

其实很多男孩子都不知道，

女孩子在冲他们发火后自己转过身却在不断啜泣。
实很多男孩子都不知道，

女孩子从来不会真正去生他们的气，因为她是真的喜欢他在乎他。
其实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子只会对自己喜欢的男生唠唠叨叨，

也只会对自己喜欢的人耍性子。

你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，她根本不会来在乎你关心你，怕你做错事情。

你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，她根本不会对你发火不会冲你撒娇让你哄她，

在别人面前她都是淑女。

你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，你根本就没有本事让她哭泣，

让她即使生气也不会超过2天。

而这一切都只是因为她喜欢你，而这一切都因为你还不够在意她不够懂她。
　　于是，你们时常争吵，你认为她脾气不好，她认为你不够迁就她。

于是，你们总是冷战，你以为她不喜欢你，她以为你不在乎她。

于是，你们总是莫名其妙的彼此错过，也许擦身而过，本身就是一种悲伤着的无奈与幸福。
　　要知道，凄美依然是美的一种，并且美的绚丽悲凉而沧桑，那是更加的美。

因为她喜欢你，所以她偶尔冲你发火，时常对你撒娇。

因为她喜欢你，所以她才会生你的气；

而又因为喜欢你，她才不会去生气很久。

你可知道，每个女孩子的心都是水晶做的，晶莹剔透，但是很容易就碰伤摔碎。

你可知道，每个女孩子都是不设防的，你那么轻易就闯进她的心，走的时候却只留下伤害。她从来都不知道，这个世界上根本没有可以让她哭的人，

因为真正值得她哭的那个根本舍不得让她哭。

她会很矜持，
她会很骄傲，
她会很冷淡，
她总是嘴里说着你走开，心里却一直叫你留下。

你了解女孩吗?
　　请你张开你的耳朵，
也请你打开你的心，
去听她心里真正的呼唤，
而不是她嘴里的口是心非。

她会看着你转身，然后她跟着你转身，当侧身而过的时候，

你看不见她的泪，滂沱在脸上心里。
如果你喜欢她，请你多陪她；
如果你喜欢她，请你多宠她；
如果你喜欢她，请你多让她。
如果你喜欢她，请你去听听她内心的声音，那是呐喊——请拥抱她。
在爱情里，总是彼此伤害，彷佛这样才能证明自己爱得激烈爱到轰轰烈烈。

可是，爱情里没有孰对孰错；

爱情里更加没有你比我多我比你少。

你爱她，她爱你，如此就已经足够。

不要试图让彼此的伤害，让彼此更加脆弱悲伤。

你们彼此相爱，你们需要的是温暖是幸福是甜蜜是快乐，不是伤害。

不要用沉默宣战，不要互不相让，
更不要什么话都不讲就冷漠离去。要知道，你离去的时候，你的眼睛起了雾，她的眼角泛着泪光。

越是安静战火就越深，这是冷战也是彼此的伤害——

无论是怎么的复合，那些伤口曾经存在，抹不去。

请跟她一个拥抱，用你的拥抱去化解她心里的悲伤与眼角的泪水。

她喜欢你，她绝对不会拒绝你的拥抱，她只会害怕你的冷漠转身无声安静。　　　　请记住，相爱的人不要轻易宣战，因为冷战带来的伤害，超出你的预计。

也请记住，只要你喜欢她，没有什么是你接受不了的，

只要你喜欢她，就喜欢她的一切一切。

那么她所有的小性子所有的坏脾气所有的臭毛病，在你眼里都是撒娇。

也请记住，她喜欢你，她需要的不是你真的转身，她嘴里说着的也不是她的真心话。

她只是想你宠她，想你抱她，哪怕，没有道谦。

memoire flash

2009-08-06T18:28:00.002+08:00

gosh.. suddenly picture of the past keeps running across my mind,
the time where i started playing ping pong
(it is all because of someone wants to learn n my mom asked me to accompanied him to learn as well, so.. it got me an opportunity to pick up that skills not bad yea.. )
there is where i met 2 weirdo in my life,
one is a guy which born in the same year, month, date and even surname.. isn't it cool,
how often can u meet someone like that??
another guy is a guy which looked serious but do something stupid or ridiculous,
it make my training session fun n interesting,
there is also one little girl that likes to play with me..
a very nice girl and cute,
i can also see those state n young malaysia representative plays, they are soo cool n wish i could play that well just like them.
The memory also bring me back to inter-school tournment,
one of the state player helps me (cheating actually)
his high school become the host of the year for ping pong tournment,
in the game, it suppose to be the opponent to gain point, but he cheated n tell the player that no you fault that's y she got the mark.
and after the game, my couch was laughing with a serious face telling me, u cheat.
and i was so embrassed that time,
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it also flashed by where i skip all my tuition, classes, training to loiter around,
to watch tournment, to heboh heboh, find excuses to skip those boring biology and physic class just because i'm the president of the co-op, sleep in maths class, eat in my moral and add maths class, run away on monday afternoon because of b.m class ( i seated just next to the door)
shirley, n nee, we played laugh together, go tuition together, n alot more stuff,,,,
at that moment tears running in my eyes, not letting it drip.
looking at those picture trying to find other more pictures..
time really flies fast and doesn't wait for another...
appreciate what i have now, because those precious moment won't be any more
hold tight in my hand n remember all the happy time n forget those sad time.

Happy Birthday

2009-08-03T21:35:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday my Dear Fren,
Tan Choon Hong,
The only one guy that appear in my life that is sooo important,
because of your attence in my life changes a thousand things.
you brought a lot of fun, challenge, dream, future and friendship in my woody life
from the day we met, we seperate, we fight, we find adventure, we find life and find dream together,
those are not just past,
but also future for our own,
the way, the path we might go through will be different,
but there is always something that won't change
that is our friendship..
my promise to u..
u are the one important guy that i appreciate the most in my life..
don't suspect that..
Happy birthday my Beloved, n Best Friend..
Mr. Tan Choon Hong...
I know u don't miss that i can't be there to celebrate ur birthday with you..
but in my deep heart i still hope that u will miss me n those day that we spend together...
i love u...
muackss
:)
hope u have a nice day n lo000ts of fun yea..
either with teddy or another one..
hheheh
i don't know u will read this anot,
but if u do..
then..
hahahahah blek..
don't eat too much of cake yea...
if not
haiseh..
ur mom also say u getting fatter.,,
or mayb u miss me too much till u cant eat,,
then ur mom will thanks to me
jahahahahaha
isn't it good
can i come back n celebrate with u??
i think i can yea..
if i do,,,
wat will u do?

DriVe~

2009-07-02T13:10:00.003+08:00

I realize in my life, there is no drive
when there is no drive for me to do anything,
how am I gonna persuade to my dream if there is no drive?
where can I find the drive to continue to dream.
Every time I reads my friend's blog,
I find him full of passion, full of drive and so brave to chase after his own dream,
no matter what kind of difficulties and challenge he met,
how much he grumble, how many times he falls,
he still stand up and take a deep breathe and continue his dream.
I'm pondering, what drives him so crazy about his dream?
If there is some where of some place where by I can find a port,
a Port where I can find all I need, all I want

craps!!

2009-06-24T00:55:00.002+08:00

The world is always bright,
as long u know wat path are u taking and be strong and hold on to the choice that u have made,
if you are undergoing a dilemma that surpass ur own limitation,
never hesitate to ask for help or talk to someone,
when there is no one that can help you,
always believe that U urself can overcome everything,
there wont be any sorrow if you see things differently,
there wont be any cuts if you dun cut it,
there wont be sadness if you dun wan to be sad,
True enough that the statement above this line might be oppose by some other ppl
but if we ourself dont believe in what we are capable for,
and always turn ourself down,
things wont work out.
If we wanna live a life, then live a life that we want n never regret,
if you wanna just live for die, den go ahead,
is all our choice,
isn't it??

To: Ong Hsien Loong

2009-06-04T04:57:00.001+08:00

oh my god man ong..
is it a crime that i dint not update my blog??
tell me.. since u are soo the fucking free,
why don't you update ur blog (if u have one)
hurm!!!!!
okay~~ maybe you do have a blog that i dint even notice,
that willl be my bad for not noticing you. (tat is usual)
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I been 'killing' ppl in the month of MAY
not in the word of killing killing,
but killing ppl with words and by books as well
when i said that,
i think as a very good ji mui u shud know wat i mean
well~
i finally updated a blog dat ade kaitan with someone else.. that is you
Ong Hsien Loong
are u proud of it??
i hope you do ok??
hahah~~

Till the day we MEET again!!

2009-04-30T07:35:00.002+08:00

Ms Blur 2X/ Tan 2X Ying..
STOP pretending that you miss me lo~~
when i chao d only you tell me that you miss me,
then what am I to you when I always bugging you,
meaning that you don't miss me lah izzit??
Till today only you realize that I'm important in your life ler,
see, i chaoz d only you crap with me,
how often do you on9,
i did chat with Nee n Snowie,
both also tell me u missing in the thin air d..
so what is your explanation??

remarks: There are always someone there waiting for you to come back,
Don't play till forget us, need us to remind you when should me meet up, some time do take the initiative to come and look for us, and be punctual STOP FFKING us
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>><<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<
Ms. Winnie The Pooh
I'm sorry that i left without saying a words,
it is kinda hard to say goodbye with u guys,
we have been walk through the hard time and also happy time in school-after school
we have been in some weird condition where we do not know should we continue the friendship because the trust had gone,
I always tell myself, there is nothing can replace our relationships, not a single person can change it,
so when the time you push my hand away when i try to comfort you,
i know that you have lost the trust on me,
But there is always something that makes me goes back to you,
that is our promise,
no matter what had happen,
just let it be,
what is important is our future and friendship.
we will always be family!!

remarks: after i'm gone, you will be the heart of them, call them out often, dun give up looking for that miss blur, and always talk to ms self problem then update to me ><
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>><<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<

Ms. Snowie
hey.. you are the one that makes me worry the most, as usual and as always,
because you dun like to tell your problem to me..
maybe i doesn't look trustworthy to you or i'm not the right one to share your problem,
but i do hope that when you really have problem,
look up for someone that you really can hoke up to and chat with them,
at least you can be more release.
don't always find problem for yourself, and not all the problem is your problem
your shoulder is not that big to take all the problem..
this will all makes you more trouble..
so give yourself some space.. breathe..

remarks: ms problem, be tough..

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>><<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<,,

till the day we meet again, i wonder will all of us be the same or more mature..
i really looking forward for the day..
500 days more to go...
and i know you guys won't be reading it...
but if someone that know them read it..
plz pass my mess to them or ask them to check themselves
thank u~~

arigatooooo

Kekasih Gelapku~

2009-04-28T21:59:00.002+08:00

,memory segala menyimpan aku Disini
,pun rindu sepatah mengata tanpa
,berlalu is biarlah, berlalu yang
.menitis yang pun mata air setitik biar Jangan

,anda sedih tunjuk pernah tidak, tagah yang Kau
,pun kata sepatah cakap berani tidak, lemah yang aku
,pergi dan aku kepala paling dan
.Gelapku Kekasih engkaulah kata kau Disitu

,kata kau yang apa nafi tidak Aku
,berada sudah aku biarpun
,berlalu masa lama berapa kisah tidak
.Gelapku Kekasih tetap engkau

,dariku maaf mengampun tidak kau Biarpun
,denganku berhadap bila senyum masih
,darah menitis kau hati, tahu aku
.sanggup tidak aku, itu dan

,Gelapku Kekasih Engkau
,sebabku sedih jangan
,dariku lebih yang carikan anda hati biar
dariku sempurna yang untuk baloi kau sebab

恶魔的温柔！！

2009-04-27T22:04:00.006+08:00

恶魔，
任谁听见，都会马上转身就跑，
恶魔的悲伤，却没人会懂。
在人的心中，恶魔永远是邪恶的，
在恶魔的心中，是没有善良的容身地。
但有谁真正的了解恶魔的真面目。
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恶魔是你！！这是我常对你说的话，
对，在我身旁的你就像恶魔般的天使，
在别人眼中，你总是扮演着恶魔的角色，
所以理所当然的人们都会把你归类为恶魔。
可是，那是人们对你的曲解，
就像没人尝试去了解恶魔一样的道理。
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我们的结合就是因为你那恶魔的个性，
你爱作弄我，爱欺负我，也很爱凶我，
你爱作弄我是因为这算是我们一种沟通的方式，
爱欺负我是因为你都用欺负来表现你的关怀，
而凶我却因为，你想让我知道我做错了，要我改，
所以我才说你是出现在我心里温柔的恶魔。
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如果，有一个男/女生对你有这么一样的行动，
那表示他/她已喜欢上你了，
所有的爱都是由喜欢开始，
为什么就不给他/她一个机会，
或许结局会不一样！！

TiM3,pAsS.faST.

2009-04-07T18:44:00.002+08:00

is been 3 month i'm away from home,
things start to get better and better here,
the weather, the people, the food, the environment and the temperature.
As usual, I'm not gonna be the pet of the school, again, I'm hiding in a corner
spying..!!
haha~~
political over here, erm~~ nope, not that serious (hospitality student doesn't like to involve in political issue)
Rumors over here.. Yeappie (traditional student here, believe in what they listen)
Ghost stories here~~ creepy.. (fine this is because this school built after the hospital and old fox home)
everything seems to be great here,
but still i miss foods in Malaysia, the Weather and also my family.
soon~~ i gonna have finals around the corner,
still thinking on where should i go for training, or i shouldn't go for training.
Is A BIG HEADACHE...
well time will tell~~

喜欢和爱！！你分得清楚吗？

2009-04-07T16:30:00.001+08:00

喜歡和愛咫尺千里。

當你喜歡一個人時，你想和他在一起，因為他會帶給你快樂；

離開後，你會想念，想著想著就會笑，然後繼續你平靜的生活，並期待著與他再一次重逢。

當你愛一個人時，你想和他在一起，那是一種牽腸掛肚的捨不得，怕他受委屈，怕他不能好好照顧自己；

離開後，你也會想念，想著想著歎一口氣，'不知他現在過的怎樣？'

然後你繼續你平靜的生活，希望他早日回到你身邊。

你喜歡的人在你眼中是天使，無所不能，他總會滿足你的任性的要求。

你愛的人在你眼中是孩子，傻傻的，你不期望他做出什麼'好事'來，只一味縱容他那些讓人哭笑不得的舉動。

你會希望你喜歡的人陪著你，然而你心中想的可能是你愛的人；

你會希望陪在你愛的人身邊，看他在你面前睡得如此安逸甜美毫不設防的樣子，你會微笑，會覺得好幸福。

你喜歡的人傷害了你，你會生氣，並且一定要讓他哄著騙著逗你笑你才原諒他；

你愛的人傷害了你，你只會獨自傷心，因為你怕對他大吼大叫會嚇著他，你憂傷地微笑著，看著他的眼睛，

一旦發現他的眼裡流露出歉意和悔恨，你會立即心疼地摟他在懷裡，那一刻，你也是幸福的。

你可以同時喜歡很多人，你會希望和很多人在一起，

但也許很多年後你才發現，原來你愛的就只有那麼一個，

就那麼一個，怎麼都不會變，你以為把他忘記了，其實只是忙的沒空想起而已，

對於你喜歡的人，你關注的是他的優點；

對於你愛的人，你關注的是他的缺點，並且，那些缺點如果無關原則的話，它們在你眼裡是可愛的，獨一無二的。

喜歡和愛其實只有一紙之隔，任何愛都從喜歡開始，當有天你突然發現，你喜歡的那個人在你眼中不再完美，

而他的瑕疵正如月中的桂影一般讓你更加依依不捨，你會覺得與他光彩照人的一面相比，

你更願意看他在你面前無助的表情，不知道是不是應該祝賀你，總之，你的感情昇華了

——

仰慕不是愛，甚至不是喜歡，當你對一個人只有仰慕之情時，你們在一起便失去了和諧。

有人說愛一個人很累，的確是，因為你想為他承擔，可是愛與喜歡相比最大的魅力就在於，

當你和愛的人在一起時，你的感覺就像回家了！

unusual feelings

2009-03-23T05:54:00.002+08:00

i feel awkward about this feelings towards you,
is a feeling that i never had in my life before,
maybe is all because of you,
my baby,
Your attendance brings lights and colours into my black and white life,
in the first place, i think this might happen maybe is because of the new beginning.
I'm confuse and feeling miserable,
i'm afraid to lose the feeling towards you,
because i'm afraid to lose you.
i hope the feeling towards you is forever,

Distance increase by 10,000 km

2009-02-26T09:43:00.003+08:00

on the 28 of january 2009,
from the moment i step into the airport,
i know our distance will increase by 10,000km
and on the 16 of february 2009
the moment u step up to the flight,
our distance increase by another 4000km
in total 14,000km that we are apart.
wow!! sounds long rite??
that is not all,
after that 14,000km
we still have time differents about 9 hours
okok.. that doesn't matter as well, the worst part is, we will be seperated for another 2 years, that will be 24 months, 104weeks.
can u imagine that.
Dun ask me to calc the time, i scare the figure too huge for you to see..
let say, ok let say ya!!
if, there is some accident happens that i could not make it to aust to look for u for my job, will you kill me??
i bet i will.. and i'm assure that from that very minutes begin,
u will ripe me off ur life
wahhha
sounds serious,
wth, it sounds like i'm talking to my gf/bf
nah~~~
is juz towards my buddies,
so that she can know that how much i miss her actually..
with her high pitch of tone, and crazy character will make me n her buddies forever.
but how long this relationship can go on,
no body know,
as days goes by, we will know how far we can move on.

期待着幸福的抉择

2009-02-26T08:50:00.004+08:00

到底什么才是幸福？
那我的幸福有到底在哪里？
离开的前一天，到朋友家玩，算算自己今年的运程，
结果叻，叫我要防小人，不够贵人也很多，
所以都会安全度过。
算一算，又告诉我，今年会遇见我喜欢的人，
但追求者很多，所以要小心选。
那我注定完蛋了，
知道为什么我要那么说吗，原因很简单
我从来没选对过，一向冲动的我都是鲁莽的作出选择
到最后才后悔。
那我要怎么作出幸福的抉择??
不是在开我玩笑吧！！
一年前，就有人告诉我说，
我的真命天子会在今年出现。
我的天，那我真的相信了，会出现。
但会是谁呢？
我完全没有Clue，
神啊，救救我啊，一把年纪啦，一个爱人都没有（开玩笑而已）
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在那里，让我遇见了他们，
他们都对我很好，各有千秋
撇开外表不说，
内心吗，因为都认识不久，都不敢把比喻用在他们身上
待会用错了词，那我不就完蛋了。
我到底要怎么做，才会知道谁才是我的抉择
用我自己的心？？这也太困难了吧。
要是我都没心呢？
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在远方的你，是否听见我的呼唤
那你就快快来和我相会吧！
我会乖乖地站在原地等你，
等你来和我会和。
我们的定情信物是一个非常特别的遭遇，
就在那时，我一定可以把你找出来，
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the PLACE where i BElong

2009-02-13T03:34:00.002+08:00

kitchen is a place where ev1 knows it function,
but not everyone know wat to do inside the kitchen,
in here, my new kitchen is a fabulous place to run..
The kitchen is not big, but definitely can serve food for 300 pax,
and everything u wan u can get it here,
when u step in to the kitchen,
it reali make me feel sooo sooo warm,
not because of the heat in the kitchen,
is like another home for me.. feel belong

FinaLlY.....

2009-02-12T04:07:00.004+08:00

after 2 weeks of struggling with the network in my new house,
i finally get rid of the life without connection..
so.. now start my blog smoothly again, oh yea n of coz upload some pic for u guys to look..
kinda sad coz i dint have much picture, but wait till next week, i will definitely take more n more..
now i show u some first ya.. :)

sunshine in the morning after snowing!!

hurm... looks like the railway near my house

oooo!!! juz outside IMI..

behind my class room!! ^^ dun jealous ya

on the way to my new school!!

outside ny room.. cant see clearly huh~~ fine a better view nex time

wer the morning market is!1

different lifes, new look n better person?

2009-02-09T02:25:00.003+08:00

is been like, let me count...
erm.. about 11 or 12 days since i arrived here..
it is a wonderful place too stay^^
nice place to travel, juz if i'm here to travel...
in fact, i'm here to study, even though it is nice to stay, but it is a little too far from the school...
god damm..
i'm so far farie away from all my fren, cant share all the fun with them in the coll
that is like wat a waste..
but i found a better way to make the distance short..
every weekends, i will be staying over my fren's room preparing myself for the weekends scholarships..
Really anxious bout the scholarship..
hope i wont change any taste of the food, if it was my weeks to prepare...
i'm so sorry if i done.. in advance i telling everyone...
there might be a slight possibility that i will be hardworking to tidy up my room and also house,,
that is so not gonna happen if i still in malaysia..
everything i nit to put my own hand to do it..
such as working clothes, cook ( even i'm a culinary student) but after class, i reali felt lazy to cook for myself..

开始倒数

2009-01-22T00:45:00.003+08:00

只剩下一个礼拜，七天。
我可以在这七天里头做些什么呢！
所剩的时间不多，因为在过个3天，华人农历新年就到了
新年期间的时间过得特别快，
那我要做些什么才能把握这7天的时间?
我想见的人却迟迟都还没见到。
好希望可以建议见我的老友鬼鬼。
非常十分的想念他们。
可以出出来和我相聚吗？？？？

a little tooo fast, n boring

2009-01-06T19:38:00.003+08:00

it is soooo anxious about leaving soooo soooon..
so many thing n people that i havent look for,
so many thing that i havent buy,
so many thing that i havent prepare,
seems like so many thing is not well arrange,
how can i handle all this in one shot..
a littlee to rush...

To all my frens

2008-12-18T21:51:00.007+08:00

To My Friends Who Are...........SINGLE
給我單身朋友們
Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But

愛就像一隻蝴蝶。越要追牠，卻越要逃避。

if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it. Love can

如果就隨牠自由的飛，牠會在你最不注意時飛向你。

make you happy but often it hurts, but love's only special when you give it

愛使人快樂，卻常傷害人。但只有在你把愛給了一個真正值得付出的人時，是最珍貴的。

to someone who is really worth it. So take your time and choose the best.
所以，花點時間去選擇最好的他 / 她吧

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To My Friends Who Are............NOT SO SINGLE
給我那不是單身的朋友們
Love isn't about becoming somebody else's 'perfect person. It's about

愛不能使他 /她成為一個 '完美的人

finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be.

它卻可以使你找到一個幫你成長的他 /她

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To My Friends Who Are............PLAYBOY/GIRL TYPE

給我玩世不恭的朋友們
Never say 'I love you' if you don't care. Never talk about feelings if they

如果你不在乎，不要說 '我愛你 '。如果他們不在時，不要討論自已的感受

aren't there. Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart. Never look

不要涉足會使他人心碎的生活。

in their eye when all you do is lies. The cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl is

說謊時，不要看著眼睛。

to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall and it works

最殘忍的事莫過於男人讓女人愛他，卻是逢場作戲。反之亦然 …

both ways...

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To My Friends Who Are............MARRIED

給我已婚的朋友們
Love is not about [it's your fault], but [I'm sorry].

不要老是說 '這是你的錯 '，何不說說 '對不起 '。

Not [where are you] but [I'm right here]

不要老是問 [你去哪裡了] ，何不說說 [我就在這兒等著你 ]。

Not [how could you] but [ I understand]

不要老是問 [你怎麼會這麼作？] ，何不說說 [我了解你 ]。

not [i wish you were], but [I'm thankful you are.]

不要老是說 [我希望你這麼做 ]，何不說說 [我感謝你的一切] 。

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To My Friends Who Are............ENGAGED
給我那已訂婚的朋友們
The true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together but how

要真正衡量包容心，不是看在一起幾年了，而是要看彼此的敬愛

good you are for each other.

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To My Friends Who Are............HEARTBROKEN
給我心碎的朋友們
Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to

心碎的時間和傷害的深度，完全取決於你自已。

go. The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.

難的是，如何從中學習，而不是從傷痛中爬起。

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To My Friends Who Are............NAIVE

給我所有天真的朋友們
How to be in love: Fall but don't stumble, be consistent but not too

要如何戀愛？ --就愛吧。不要欲言又止；要互相協調，不要太固執；

persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand,

要分享，且千萬不要有不公平；要了解，別命令；

and get hurt but never keep the pain.
受傷後不要再記恨。

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To My Friends Who Are............POSSESSIVE
給我積極的朋友們
It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else but

看到你所愛的他 /她和其他人很快樂使你心碎

it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.

但知道你所愛的他 /她是和你在一起不快樂，令人更加的傷心

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To My Friends Who Are............AFRAID TO CONFESS
給我害怕去承認的朋友們
Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when

當你和他 /她分手時，愛受到傷害

someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you

當他 /她和你分手時，更是傷痛

love has no idea how you feel.

但傷害最深的是你所愛的他 /她完全無法了解你的感受

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To My Friends Who Are............STILL HOLDING ON
給我那還在等待的朋友們
A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love, only to

人生最傷心的事，是你和他 /她愛情長跑了多年，最後的結局卻不如所望。

find out in the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it. If he isn't worth it now he's not

' 如果他/ 她現在讓你覺得不值得付出，那麼一年，甚至十年後，都不會值得付出的。

going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now. Let go.....

讓他 /她走吧

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TO ALL MY FRIENDS.......

給我所有的朋友們
My wish for you is a man/women whose love is honest, strong, mature,

我竭誠祝福你們愛著一個誠實、強壯、成熟、衷心、有衝勁、保護你、積極、值得付出和無私的他 /她。

never-changing, uplifting, protective, encouraging, rewarding and unselfish

taken from somewhere... forwarded mail...

boring holiday...

2008-12-17T18:54:00.002+08:00

finally... i finish my diploma exam..
aikss..
after two years, all the hard work( i think i did work hard)
hurm..
so what is the next thing shud i do?
aite..
I'm having my holidays now, feel so lazy to do anything..
one n half month holidays, what can i do in this holiday?
o yea, the plan will be...
1) attending the Announcement of Result on 20 dec 2008
2) goin to ipoh with my fren??
3) chill out with my sister....
4) celebrate christmas with teddy bear..... in malacca
5) once again chill out with my sister
6) go johor with my dad juz to visit Joyce....
7) another one month to go b4 newyear..
shall be planning in the future..
opps.. hav to try talking to baby, challenging task i facing..
u r so far away, n i'm so far away and there are so many misunderstanding..
hurmmm
how to solve
wat a holiday.......
can i juz get rid of this holiday??

when there is a dream for me to persuade, i shud

2008-12-14T23:32:00.002+08:00

after my exam wat shud i do??

1) play all i can [paint ball, still in the progress of planning to be confirm on wednesday]
2) return all the thing i borrow from ppl [i wil return on tuesday]
3) shopping for all the thing i need (since is mega sales now)
4) to meet all my frens tat long nv contact/see [primary n secondary fren]
5) cut hair n facial [after tuesday]
6) go holiday [yea to malacca and johor]
7) celebrate christmas [malacca- check n confirm]
8) celebrate new year [ will be at jb i guess]
9) celebrate chinese new year [ to far to be concern]
10) take a good rest and also kacau ppl as much as i can

okie dokie.. all check..

Final Exam

2008-12-13T21:05:00.007+08:00

treize decembre,
douze heures et de mie
an over view for all the product,
after 3.5 hours of sweat and tears. (actually 2 years sweat and tears)
this is what turns out to be....

no2. this is not a good number

Let's take a closer view to my plates..
so first of all, the starter
scallpos and prawn salad with vinaigrette dressing

better??
aite aite..
follow me to the next course, main course
Halibut serve with vegetable timbale, potato risoler and serve with red capsicum coulis and hollandaise sauce..

well.. i know it is a little mess up.. haha but nvm i'm still hapi with it

continue by my dessert, pear tart with almond cream filling and caramel sauce.

dream to b a pastry chef
but but... how can i burn my tart..
sad case..
wat a curse for station no.2
i know the previous station no.2 owner burn as well
sob sob..
isn't it a little spooky??

right.. that's all
o yea!!! b4 i forget
thank you jien shen for borrowing all the beautiful plates..
erm.. let's think what should i comment for myself,
scallops too salty, fish a little over cooked, burn my potatoes, burn my tart..
other den that, i think evthing will be fine,
next time just be more caution about the oven..
especially the station no.2 oven..
SpoOkY...
@.@

let's share

2008-12-10T22:36:00.003+08:00

aite aite...
share smtg happi with u guys..
my lovely, notti, cute, evil daughter is back to malaysia,
even though i did not go n pick her up in the airport,
so i give her a sweet call right after she reach airport...
hhehe....
oredi 4 days she is bak but but....
sigh!!!
but, she is bz with her own thing and i'm having my finals..
so dun reali can spend time with her,
hurm...
planning to spend some sweet time with her, but but...
she is leaving to HK with the family right after i finishmy final..
wat a 1st time celebrating christmas without her..
feel not so right..
hahah...
i'm pondering, did she gain weight??
for me is juz nice..
keep it up gal..
ngek ngek
is nice and good to see you back by my side...
ha~~~~
relief relief~~~

What is worth for urself

2008-12-08T17:11:00.002+08:00

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.

我愛你不是因為你是誰，而是我在你面前可以是誰。

2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.

沒有男人或女人是值得你為他流眼淚，值得的那一位，不會要你哭。

3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

那人不是你所想般愛你，但不代表那人不是全心全意地愛你。

4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.

一個真正的朋友是向著你伸手，觸動你心靈的人。

5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.

掛念一個人最差的方式，就是你坐在他身旁，而知道你不能擁有他。

6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.

就算你不快樂也不要皺眉，因為你永不知道誰會愛上你的笑容。

7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.

在世界裡你可能只是某人，但對某人你可能是全世界。

8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.

不要花時間在一個不會花時間在你身上的人。

9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when

we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.

可能神要我們在遇到那位對的人之前先遇上一些錯的人，讓我們遇到那位對先生/對小姐時懂得珍惜。

10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.

不要因為完結而哭，要為曾經發生而微笑。

11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting

and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.

這個世界永遠也會有一些傷害你的人，你要做的就是繼續去信人和小心你下次信的人。

12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.

在你嘗試了解其他人和盼望其他人明白你之前，先把你自己變成一個更好的人和了解你自己。

13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.

不要太努力去找，最好的東西是在你最預計不到的時候出現。

REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON.

緊記: 所有事也是因果循環的。

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Being happy is the priority of living,

If u wanna be sad,

Be sad 4 something thats worth it.

珍惜你所擁有的，慶幸所曾發生的。

*I AGREE WITH THE STATEMENT

2008-11-29T23:07:00.003+08:00

i feel apart from a lot of people now days, especially my best friend, they become the person i did not know anymore.. is it because of me?? of my own world or wat had make us apart?

我问我自己，我到底是一个怎么样的人
寂寞？孤单？固执？幼稚？任性？执著？奇怪？笨蛋？
好，以上的，都在我的血液里。
我赞成，
我是一个喜欢放逐自己到孤单边元的人，
不让任何人明白自己，还是因该说我是一个奇怪的人，
因为心灵上的不平衡让自己变成寂寞的人。
寂寞和孤单有什么分别？
孤单代表身边没有人陪伴而寂寞代表心灵没有人懂
我不是固执的人而是执著的笨蛋。
一度的伤害身边的人，一而再，再而三的伤害我爱和爱我的人。
还好笨蛋醒啦！！
because of some incident it make me realize that life is just happen in that way,
no one can predict what will be happening in the nex second, just go all the way and appreciate what is given, dun try to push things away, there are so many other thing that we can do in today, tomoro i might be dead, after i die, what else i can do?
nothing, so i better be sure of what i want to do, i will complete today, no more hesitation in life and no more wasting in life. aftering my dream and also people.

another sugar pulling..

2008-11-29T21:33:00.006+08:00

aite, these what i can get from G1 sugar pulling class....
well well, drop of leaf in the shinny afternoon.
blooming rose in the bush of spiral
hurm... i'm not so sure is this chui mun's creation..
same as this, i not sooo sure is this David's handwork or is urs ant..
i'm sure, this is eric's wan.. coz no one else blow that much of balls... haha

look's like a shark tale there?? nice round ball ..

is this, erm i'm not sure.. is this urs??Ivan

this is dear wan or bro wan ler... confusee...

sowee.. i cant take the angel of two flowers.. so i present to u the unique flower.

ouch... broken petal!!

wat a long mustache... it take over the main picture..

sweet rose.... rose rose i love u... shinning in the dark..

well well well.. good job tc with ur flower.. but the ball.. there's hole..

hey class rap.. how long u take to do this??

any one wan to adopt this centre piece??
belong to whu??

sugar work....

2008-11-26T09:18:00.012+08:00

hohoho!!
As a very professional reporter in my respective class, i had collected pictures of our final exam for sugar pulling..
after 4 class of learning sugar, how to handle the dough, the temperature and also pull,
these will be the outcome:
Enjoy it!!

look at th is, this required blowing, pulling, and also making spiral...
this is call the al's center piece...
are u satisfied al??

looks like a weird mickey mouse with two curly hair??
haha...
adik, so wat do u think about ur own creation??

plz, only focus on the front 1 that have 2 balls, one with yelow n 1 with pink wan..
the alphabet there also showing u, asking you to pay attention the onli front wan K..

kinda light ya the colour.. but still it is blooming the flower...

cool, see there are extension coming out from this piece of thing.. even though the pic looks a little blur, but reality it look nice..

little flower blooming in btween the giantantic ball

opps!!! a little broken at the top of the ball..

wow!! gorgeous wan!! but i like the colour behind of it..
look greenish n blueish..

haha!! this is made by look..

blue wave...
big ass sitting on top of the ballon..

nice??
of coz.. it took more than an hour to finish
it takes reali much time..
so appreciate it...

golden drop on the marvelous earth. the blooming golden flower bring prosperity..

where is the spiral...
can u find it??

where is the ball??
is it missing some where??

wow, is kinda colourful
but i know u are cheating
hahha
coz the nice flower is not made by u
hahah
gotcha!!

another mickey..
is mae by different poeple.. can u see,
how nice n neat is the rose...
perfect ya??

assembling the sugar that are made, but kurang 4 lah!!!!'
do u know which one is mine??

i failed my mission

2008-11-16T22:01:00.002+08:00

damm it...
i failed my mission today, (this mean that i do not have the talent to be a reporter)
remember, i suppose to take picture of the interclass competition picture, but i failed..
even though i managed to blue tooth a few pic from my fren, but i did not take all and i feel sooooo bad, coz could not share the gorgeous n delicious pictures of food with all of the food lover, and together we can discuss about food.
while i guess i nit to collect all the photo b4 i can post it up..
haha...
so sorry, u guys hav to be patient for nice pic..

today

2008-11-16T00:20:00.003+08:00

well well well..
hapily belated to my papa!!!
yesh... today is his b'day,
early in the morning,
i havent even greet and wish him
and he sudd pop out and giv me a present...
Is not my b'day dong....
but i receive a present from a b'day man
isn't it amazing??
hhaha
cool...
that's y my day starter of with a bright and chilling day
evthing goes well and nice..
perfectly...
ok...
i think i will come bak in the after to update with the pic and process of interclass competiton pic..
are u guys prepare n nervous for this coming morning??
i will be the reporter for tomolo... 9 sharp will be there waiting for u

Am i smart or moron?

2008-11-15T01:33:00.003+08:00

hurm..
always thinking about this Question.
AM i a GENIUS or MORON
i consider myself as a smart person..
hohohoh, not praising myself ok (in a sense mayb i do)
why do i say that i'm smart.
i admit mayb i'm not good in academic, i reali do..
and that makes me look stupid. ( yeap, i believe 85% of the ppl do think of that, not good in academic = ruinning your whole life)
alright, i can accept the way they think it might be 50% true or maybe lesser den tat..
is fact that academic brings the world up yet also down..
education gives me the knowledge but if i could not absorb the words that are given that what is the point of education?
if i juz blindly follow wat the book write is not a smart way as well.
exam is not everything, marks is not the way u determine that who we are and it doesnt decide my future.
i'm smart in the way not i study but understand eventhough is through the hard way,
but i still learn and use it for life. not like theory.
theory it might support the fact but i still nit myself to understand it.
not other referrence or explanation from the others but i got my own way to learn
GOD created ev1 with pro n cons, no 1 is perfect. ev is equaly the same..
so y muz u judge me with my A's and E's
i'm good in smtg that u do not realise
maybe my IQ is low, as low as 1
but my EQ is as high as 99
so it still make me a smart person
because i know how to make myself hapy rather den sad.
and i also know how to make ppl hapi den making the annoy
so I AM SMART
hahahahahha!!!!!!!!!

late update...

2008-11-13T00:53:00.007+08:00

vingt trois- Aout- deux miles huit

ROCKER'S NIGHT..
*presented by DC 26 Group 2 and DH 26 Group 3

This is a wonderful nite... a night where all the chefs in my group reali turns up to be damm super duper pro chef.. incredible, miracle...
suddenly u guys turn into a person where i totally cant recognize..
hohh
is a good starting..
let me show the world our first time work.. hope it is impressing to u guys..

let us begin our journey back to 23 aout
first course - amuse bouche
red red colour wan is sashimi salmon with dill on top..
in the short glass 1 will be mushroom with tomato n pesto..
isn't it look so gorgeous??
but it doesn't suit to the theme..
do u agree with me??

followed by our 2nd course..
deng deng deng deng...
tutu...zingzongzingzong.... there come the long queue of second course
few of the pro chef is preparing, plating..
look nice n tidy??

o~~ c.c.c.... there come the second course...
lovely.....
is spring chicken stuff with spinach.. doesn't sound match ya,
but it taste damm nice n perfectly match..
garnish with some mix salad
and finally the sauce for the chicken....
the final touch is add 2 'misai' for the dish...
hahaha

feeling dry??
no prob...
we have soup for u...
potato soup...
hurm... nothing special but it taste nice..
dont u think so??
i do.. coz i drank kinda alot..
but but.... the bread is make by a person who doesn't belong to my class, wat to do?? i failed to make the bread so hav to call for help..
haha!!!

well after so many entree...
where the hell is the main course??
they are hungry..
alrite there come the main course..
wau... it look giantic....
wat a big piece of lamb serve with risotto...
i know i know kinda alot of ppl say it is dry..toooo dry
but still it doesn't affect the taste rite..
dun worry.. we will improve the moisture nex time..
haha.....

woho... after finishin the biggie portion of main course..
i believe alot of ppl oredi bloated.. believe that u guys are will be reali damm full
now let see
for the dessert,
wow~~~~~ this is reali hav to praise myself ... muahhahah
is a lovely n muddy n chocolaty brownies.. after eating that much of thing can they still eat such heavy dessert??
is a disaster not anymore a dessert.
hahhaah
but i got alot of comment from this dish as well
haha
even is tired but i think is worth it..

Yummy!!

well i juz have to thanks to Wai Yin, Loo, Nizam, Jac Jac, Joyce, Kang, Victor, See, Ali, Pris, Farrah, Sashi, Irwin, Samson, Amir, and ME myself hohohoho
and specially thanks to our bread maker Eddie..
haha

fate? faith?

2008-11-11T01:59:00.000+08:00

fate brought us together, yet fate seperate us and brings us meeting a new person
i do believe that, i reali reali do believe with no doubt.
that's y fate bring all of you into my life.
in year 2006, that is the worst life i ever been into.
I think that is the year where i talk the least, n my life was soo sooo soooo miserable till i did not know wat to do even i have my own dream to go on. Yet i let my self n people who cared for me down.
but fate brought u guys into my life and fill the space of black n white.
this is where the story began:
year 2007 where i first step into taylor,
there i met you miss jia leng, the warm hearted, sporty and pretty gal,
i was watching at u in front of the finance dept while waiting for my dad to come,
and you are talking with ur sis..
first impression of me to you..
owww~~ leng lui...
after that i never see u again in following day,
but fate is more than that,
he arranged us to be a same class,
i was so surprised that we are place in the same class,
and there is where we find that our FnB lect is sooo handsome hohohoh
and there also the place where we meet another her, li ching..
first impression.. wau.. leng lui also, hehe a little sombong ar, but actually a straight forward, aggressive, kind, and blur gal..
there start our relationship..
A TRIANGLE

*to be continue...

things that i doesn't know

2008-11-11T01:37:00.000+08:00

there are a lot of things that happen around me tat i did not pay attention to notice,
or should i said that i do not bother to care??
family, friends, cousin, places, and other thing,
when i found out the truth, it is so heart broken,
y they did not come and look for me wen problems arise?
All i can do is to blame myself for ignoring all these problems,
running away, hiding my head in the shell to protect myself,
my coward-ness lead me to a dead end,
a defensive wall that is built a little tooo high from the unwanted problems.
IF there is a way, a person to lead me out behind this high defensive wall,
i would give it a try, not anymore i will hide my damm tortoise head in the shell,
i will be aggressive to know, to understand, to care, to being love and ability to love.
I doesn't want to be selfish anymore to myself and to others,
being hurt is one of the big step to build a stronger and firmer heart not a defensive wall,
to face is better den running away,
i want to be the one u can hold on to, to rely on,
i do not want to see any of your tears dropping off,
i dare not want to let go of u, even time is short life is unpredictable,
but the important thing is to know what is happening around,
to be happy and care for who i wanted to care for this long using my heart and my love..

歌曲！！！

2008-11-09T23:52:00.000+08:00

在爱的世界里更本就没有对与错
只有爱与不爱
而我爱上了一个我不该爱上的人
爱上了他是我这一辈子的幸福，
但放弃他是我这一辈子的痛。
如果能重来，我愿我从来没有和你开始过。
虽说，不在乎天长地久，只再乎曾经拥有
这些都不是我想要得，
我只想要和你快快乐乐的度过我所剩下的时间。
回忆一直在脑海重复着甜蜜的情景，
但现实却反映了痛苦的一面。
要如何解脱，
解脱这一切？
时间一到，我就会像灰姑娘，
所有的梦就会随风飘去。

words by LOOk....

2008-11-09T23:40:00.001+08:00

A guy who do things to a girl who he stand a chance = INVESTMENT

A guy who do things to a girl who he is not sure to stand a chance = CONTRIBUTION

A guy who do things to a girl who he does not have stand a chance = DONATION

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men are like BANK ACCOUNT,
without a lot of money,
they can't get a lot of interest

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why do we have to appreciate life while no one can get out of it safely?

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we come to love not by finding a perfect person but, by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly

p.s: these are all words by a thinking of a guy..
dun suspect it..

buh bye~~

2008-11-02T13:11:00.000+08:00

buh bye my lovely, kind, adorable, charming, smart JIE
opps...
i gonna miss u alot..
wen i wake up in the morning..
i can't be seeing you bside me..
at nite wen i sleep also cant hear the noisy voice tat come from ur com
no ppl else will call me stupid...
no one else like u will suddenly appear from the back n pinch me..
scold me, agrue with me...
sob sob~~~~
wawawaw~~~~
so better come back fast to celebrate new year and bring me go kai kai lo...
dun stay there too long..
later those 'hantu boy' chase u away den it will be harder for me to c u...
somemore wen u come bak, left onli 2 weeks for me to spend wit u..
after tat, i will lose u again ...
wawawwwaaaawawaaa~~
i'm gonna lose u~~~~~
^^
!
!

PS... Remember to come bak fast..
tat time i will make u nice food n desserts ok
hehe... i promise

I am annoying~~

2008-11-02T13:05:00.000+08:00

huhuh...
i'm annoying.. but~~ am i??
sometimes i do feel that IT IS TRUE, i am annoying,
i like to annoyed poeple around me, but with reason
hehe..
okie, wat is the meaning of annoying?? annoy??
can someone tell me??
after checking out the meaning in the dictionary,
i realize that i'm not in the catogery of annoying..
BUT remember to tell me wat do u think is annoying..
and tell me am i annoying
~~~~~~~~~

small words of mine to remind myself

2008-10-02T19:47:00.003+08:00

only FOOLISH can find their WAY to do things they DREAM of.
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SMART people dun find their WAY but DECIDE their LIFE
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RHYTHM of songs bring colours of LIFE
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人往往因为有而烦脑，没有而去寻找。
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用最真诚的心，去解决所有问题。
面对问题不要小题大做，不要害怕，
只要胆大心细，所有的问题都不再是负累，
而是一种新的体验。
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ｔｈｅ　ｔｒｕｔｈ　ｎｅｖｅｒ　ｓｈｏｗｓ，　
ｏｎｌｙ　ｒｅａｌｉｔｙ　ｔｈａｔ　ｙｏｕ　ｈａｖｅ　ｔｏ　ｆａｃｅ，　
ｈｅｎｃｅ，　ｔｈｅ　ｒｅａｌｉｔｙ　ｉｓ　ｕｇｌｙ
＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿

ｉｆ　ｓｏｍｅｏｎｅ　ａｓｋｉｎｇ　ｍｅ
＇ｈａｖｅ　ｉ　ｇｏｎｅ　ｍａｄ＇
Ｉ　ｗｉｌｌ　ｒｅｐｌｙ，　
ｙｅｓ　ｙｏｕ　ａｒｅ，　ｅｘｔｒｅｍｅｌｙ　ｂｒｏｋｅｎ，　
ｂｕｔ　ａｌｌ　ｔｈｅ　ｓｍａｒｔ　ｐｅｏｐｌｅ　ａｒｅ
　（ｔａｋｅｎ　ｆｒｏｍ　ａｌｉｃｅ　ｉｎ　ｗｏｎｄｅｒｌａｎｄ）

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YOU..

2008-10-02T15:05:00.000+08:00

how much more time do i left in here?
i wouldn't know where will be my next destination, next stops
i wouldn't know what will i be doing in that unknown destination, unpredictable stops
my crazy little heart can't stop struggling,
what am i struggling about?
i did not know, and i did not want to know about it,
why i have this kind of weird thinking?
i can't control my heart and brain thinking about it.
somehow there are something that is stuck in my brain, in my heart
i'm confuse.
SO when are YOU coming back to help me solve all these problem??
hehe.....
yes, u half banana tat are reading this..
faster come back lah,
i dun hav much time d lor..
hurmm.. i'm wondering, is my blog open up for u??
haha

遗憾

2008-09-29T17:06:00.000+08:00

人往往都会错过一些很重要的东西，
让自己后悔莫及。
当想要挽回时，
却偏偏来不及。
那年的无知，自私，幼稚，不懂事，
让我失去了你。
那时的你却不怪我，
但还是你最懂我的心，明白我的为人
我病了，你会照顾我，
不开心，你会哄我开心
天气热，会叫我多喝水，

下雨了，你会要我别去淋雨，

因为你知道我爱玩雨。
你对我的好我都懂，都珍惜。
但当我想回头，
想再度回到你身边时，
一却都太迟了。
这时的你，
身边已有了另一个他，
因为懂我的那个你不在身边了，
明天，我就要走了，
从明天开始，
那个让你流泪的我，
再也不会出现在你梦里。
但愿你身边的那个他会让你永远快乐，
和你分担一切悲和喜。

我的明天将不会再有你。
我的遗憾将被埋在这个无人知晓的城市。

someone special

2008-09-17T01:49:00.000+08:00

sweet friend,
i always wanted to tell u that you are IMPORTANT IN MY LIFE
1) distance
2) time
3) environment
4) influence
DOES NOT AFFECT THE PIECE OF U IN MY HEART
distance might can tear us apart but i know we will try our very best to keep in touch even though back to the old days where telephone is ot available, e-mail, friendster, facebook, etc does not exist, we still can figure a way out to maintain our friendship.
when come to times that flash like no body business, could not affect us, (that is a lie, because it will change our face and body whereby wrinkles will starts to appear)(okay dokie, mayb is not tat fast, but still time flashes like juz a snaping my finger, u had leave me more than half a year) what i mean by would not affect us is the time we will be having together, it will be juz like last time, as usual. Me accompanying you to whereever u wan to go, whatever you want to do, listen to you when u are ups and downs.
environment that is different that leads us expose to different culture and experience, but that does not affect us much, except the way we greeting each other might be, yo sis, how ya?? n u will be bonjour.. whwhhhahhha sounds weird..
influence by the others, yes that is for sure i will get influence by the others, but wont be the one that is from u is forever, because it is hard for me to look for a crazy gal that can share and take the way i am (for wat i am and wat i reali are).
So even we are miles and miles and miles and miles and miles and miles and miles away......
but i will still miss u and pray for the best and luck for u. my SPECIAL SOMEONE

the day you went away!!

2008-07-29T00:32:00.000+08:00

The day you went away, i did not call or even mess u,
bcoz i know, if i call or mess u, i will feel sad and won't want u to leave.
The day you went away, i dare not go to the airport to say goodbye,
bcoz i know my tears will drop the time u turn ur head and walks away.
The day you went away, i try not to think that u are leaving me in the nex second,
but i know it won't happen, bcoz u still hav ur way to go on w/out me beside u.
The day you went away, and i realise, we havent even take a pic that i can keep inside my wallet,
bcoz i know u will always on my mind.
The day you went away , i realise, the time we spend together is really little,
bcoz i know you are busy with ur family n other fren that long never contact.
So i tell myself, the day you come back, i will be the first one go to the airport and pick you up because i know wishing you back is easier then sending you away. I know by bringing you home will be the thing i always want to do, and the tears that drop will be tears of happiness and joy because u i have u back by myside.

after so so so long.........

2008-07-22T01:12:00.000+08:00

i can't believe it that i'm on blog spot.. haha^^
hey gal.. in the middle of nite at 1.13a.m. i created my very first blog here.. can u see it??
after all i'm not that dump in it.. ngek ngek..
or shud i say that i too frus with my report so i.. i.. just create a blog to release my tension..
does it make sense?? hmmp.. i think nope....